As believers, we try not to be "weary in well doing" but sometimes - IT'S JUST HARD! We strive to do what scripture says and what we know in our hearts to be true. However, at times circumstances get dealt to us for which there is no precedence in our lives. To make matters worse, we also know that God is allowing it to take place! How can He allow us to experience these situations and hardships?
On a good day in Sunday school or Bible study we have the right answer for it, but in the deep recesses of our hearts we just want to pitch a tantrum and ask God, "Why me?!" And many of us have pitched a few tantrums in our lives. I have pitched mine in full view on this blog over the past couple of months. Well, maybe not in full view. You all got to see me after I pitched a full screaming, crying, blubbering, kicking, fist pounding, yelling, "Why me and what are You gonna do about it?" tantrum!
My posts were on the other side of my tantrum.
Though I would prefer not to pitch a tantrum at all, my tantrums led me to have some heart to heart conversations with God for which I am truly grateful. One such conversation reminded me of one of the first scriptures I ever memorized.
"Then Jesus said, 'Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.'” (Matthew 11:28-30 NLT)
I have never appreciated that scripture more than I do today. I have taken on so many burdens. My burdens, other people's burdens, the burdens of ministry, the burdens of just living life ... and you know what? They are too hard to bear!
I simply cannot bear them.
I don't have it in me.
I don't believe anyone has it in them.
Yet, Jesus tells us plainly to just come to Him and He will give us rest. "But I did Lord! But I still have them!" This used to be my reply. Sorry Kyra, but if you've still got 'em you never went to Jesus with 'em to begin with!
I have fooled myself on too many occasions that I've dealt with issues when I actually haven't at all. Like when I thought I had fully dealt with unforgiveness (which actually had been plaguing me since I was a teenager) and God showed me otherwise. Likewise, in reality I was toting around huge suitcases with burdens. They were a part of my life. Day in and day out I would pick them up and take them with me where ever I went. So, in true Kyra fashion I had to realize I really hadn't exchanged my burdens for Jesus' version of burdens. The ones that were "light". Jesus had to remind me that in His kingdom, if no fruit was bearing then it is probably counterfeit or non-existent.
Was I at rest? No.
Was it easy? Hardly.
Was everything feeling light? Not at all.
Was I learning? Apparently not.
The truth of the matter is, I was still very weary and feeling the load weighing very heavily on my heart. Then the Holy Spirit brought this verse to memory and it clicked. Jesus wants to take my burdens, whatever they are and exchange them. He will in turn give me rest (peace, comfort, refreshment, relief), ease (uncomplicated, straightforward, undemanding, no bother) and lightness (effervescence, gracefulness). Isn't that great? I don't have to walk around with heavy, weary, oppressive, nerve racking burdens. It sounds like a no brainer, but unfortunately we all do it all of the time! It certainly took me a while to take the verse to heart! Since I have, I really do feel the difference.
Am I at rest? I sure am!
Is it easy? More than I could ever imagine!
Is it light? Surprisingly so.
Am I learning? Thankfully, I believe I am!
What I have learned is that Jesus doesn't take the burden away, He takes the heaviness and weariness away. When we come to Him, and put our burdens at His feet He transforms them into circumstances that are manageable. As a quick example, several projects were on my plate and I felt all of them were "God things". However, I had no rest, it wasn't easy and it certainly wasn't light. I was overwhelmed and doubting I discerned correctly. I began to feel that perhaps it was more of a trap set by the devil than sent from God. I had a tantrum. He told me to apply the verse. I trusted Him and applied it. The result? All of the projects that were burdening me were all still on the table, but He gave me a method to manage it all. I was no longer trying to manage my burdens in my own strength. I was on cloud nine.
Jesus said the burdens He gives are light. I discerned correctly and what I felt were burdens, were from Him, but I hadn't allowed Him to put His yoke on me and I didn't allow Him to teach me how to deal with the burdens. Since I have, I have been pleasantly surprised at how much I am enjoying the burdens given to me by Jesus! He doesn't ask us to understand - just trust.
These days since I decided to "take His yoke upon me" I have been singing that great old gospel hymn:
"Glory, glory hallelujah! Since I laid my burdens down! Burdens down Lord, burdens down! Since I laid my burdens down!"
Just Around the Corner,